It has been a strange week mixed with sadness and trying to be a normal as possible. I wish sometimes that I could live in my son's body for a week and see what he sees. I wonder if he knows that his Uncle Bluto isn't going to be visiting anymore.
My husband I have been watching a programme called Celebrity Ghost stories as it was Elvs brother, favourite sort of program. They had one story where the child kept looking in the corners of the room as if looking at something that only she could see. The celebrity was an American actress so I wasn't familiar to who she was, but she talked about seeing photos in each one their was a slash light across the photos and that the ghost in her home was attracted to the child and was worried because of what may happen to the child, because of this spirit.
The actress talked about how she still goes over in her mind about the confrontation she had with the ghost, and what she saw.
The night after we received some sad news, my hubby heard my son talking, which he usually does at night and then at the end said goodnight three times, very quietly and then fell back to sleep. I didn't hear it as I was a sleep myself. Well my hubby has had his own sightings of the paranormal and thinks that Henry was talking to his brother, and since then, Henry has just a couple of times been saying goodbye to something whilst looking out our window in our living room, which looks out onto our back garden. It does get me wondering if young babies and toddlers can see things that no one else can?
I often have had experiences where my nan for example, I kept seeing her still in my dreams and we would have fall conversations and I'd think I must have got it wrong, she is alive and I had the same experience when a co-worker at Butlins died suddenly, but was when I was in my 20's. I never as a child when my real dad's parents died ever saw them in my dreams, but I would go back to where they used to live in Fulham and in the dream I would feel this fear of what if I do see them.
In the dream I would sense the smell of scented soap, as my nanny Rose who have loads of them in different shapes and sizes, and I am not sure if that is in memory or if that is my nan sending me a message that she is still there in spirit in my dreams. Who knows?
My mum is the biggest sceptic going and when I told her, I knew she wouldn't believe it and give another reason why Henry would have said goodbye that night, when that was the only night he has said Goodbye at night and not any other time afterwards and same when looking out of our back garden.
I remember a friend of mine who had suffered a loss, she was travelling on the underground and a white butterfly had flown into the carriage and then out again. It does get me wondering, do we actually go or do we go back to where we care about or to whom we care about, or can we become something else. I know some people reading this may think I have lost the plot but it does get me thinking about what happens after death.
To some people it is a sensitive subject, I think it is because we know it is there and it will happen, but no one ever knows how or why. I think it teaches us that we have to celebrate what we have around us, and I am going to focus on the good times, keep those who have passed their memory alive so Henry remembers them and knows who they are, and to keep on living the best we can.
Yesterday we took Henry to Humbledown, which is a little farm and adventure park near where I live in Surrey and it has some animals and different play areas. It is designed for children I would add pictures to my gallery page soon. I updated this page today. It was a little pricey for what is there but they had this brilliant little cafe which was like a soft play cafe all made out of wood. I thought, what a brilliant idea, they should have more cafe's like this, not just in parks but in all different areas.
On the way back my hubby so happened to be driving home from work and gave us a lift. He has #radiojackie on and they play some good tracks and today they played one of my favourite the Bee Gees You Win Again. See video below.
I am off this weekend, which I am very looking forward to and my husband and I are up London spending some time together and going to enjoy the bank holiday.
Have a good weekend everyone. If you have any paranormal stores please share I would be interested to hear.
Many thanks for reading,